I’m sitting at work right now.
I know that sounds kind of terrible; like I’m shirking my duties or something. Really, I have nothing to do right now, and nearly an hour left to be here. Of course it’s entirely possible someone will walk to up to my desk and ask me to do something, or a student walk in needing assistance, or something….but until that happens, I’ve finished everything I was working on, and am left to entertain myself.
The job is going well, if you want to know. My honest opinion? Being a receptionist is generally really boring. But I’ve got something to do during the day, and I’m making some money, so I really can’t complain. I actually look forward to the days when I read in the court reporting classes. I think it’s kind of fun. It’s harder than it sounds…you have to read while watching a stop watch, making sure you’re reading the right speed. It’s like a game, almost.
I’ve felt better the last week and a half or so. About my life in general, I mean. Not to say that I haven’t shed a tear or two in that time, but I feel more hopeful and much less depressed in general. I suppose part of it has to do with having a job and something to do all day, but really, I don’t think that’s it. I’ve started repairing my relationship with Jesus. I’ve spent more time with him lately. More time with the Bible, reading, journaling. It’s been incredibly good for me, and for the first time in a long time I feel like things are actually going to work out, one way or another, in a way that’s going to be good for me. Maybe sometime I’ll transfer over some of what I’ve been writing about scripture over to here. Just to share. I’m reading through Matthew, and I think I’ll continue on to the rest of the gospels after that. It’s sort of like reading the same thing four times…but it’s four different perspectives. You learn just as much about the authors as about the subject, I think, and I really like going after stuff like that.
So, God is good.
