Church

I’ve been chewing on the concept of the church for awhile now.  What the church is.  What it should be.  How it can change.  How i can be involved in a way that is condusive to it working how it should, rather than how it does.  What it means to live in community, to support, to be supported, to hold others accountable, to be held accountable.  I’ve rebelled to an extent against the concept of church that I grew up in.  I’ve discovered how to understand things for myself, and discovered that I really want to be in the community of the church, but as it should exist, rather than as it does exist.

After all of this…I’m preaching in church next sunday.  My team will be heading up the worship service.  I’m am exhilarated.  I am also terrified.

I know what I need to do.  I need to be honest. Open.  Laid bare.  Yes, in front of everyone.  No, this does not mean I’m going to tell my entire life story, but I KNOW that a certain amount of openness will be required of me in giving the sermon.  I mean, if it is going to be done well, and as it should be. It makes me uncomfortable.

In my weakness, God will be my strength.

Moses couldn’t speak.  He did a whole heck of a lot.  I can’t very well complain, can i?

All the same, prayers would be appreciated.