Family camp week 3. That’s where I’m at right now. More specifically, sitting in the bus, which for those of you who are not calvin crest familiar is the office for the coordinators. Yes, a bus. An old broken school bus, in which they installed counter space, computers, and old subway benches and tables. And some shelves. And lights. And an air conditioner that doesn’t work very well. It’s pretty sweet though. And I mean seriously, how many people can say that a bus was their office? Not many, dear friends, not many.
Summer has been a trip. this week is the first in which I’ve actually had time off every day, which was somewhat unexpected, but quite nice. It’s also given me time to realize, however, that i’m not really ok. I mean, i’m fine, but….i’m not. I’ve been in a funk the last few days (although i’m pretty sure it started awhile ago…like last week sometime…) and im not really sure why. There’s something going on….and i need to figure out what it is, but somehow I can’t. It doesn’t help that I can’t explain any of it. I tried…it didn’t really work. I ended up getting told that I’ve been doing an amazing job, which is really great to hear, not going to lie, but there’s something going on that’s not so amazing…i dont know. It’s been strange. I feel worse and worse when people ask me how I am and I say, “fine,” or “good,” or any of the other programmed responses, because it’s not true. But I dont know what to say….I don’t actually have a real answer to the question. And if I say that i dont know how I am, i’ll be expected to explain myself…which I can’t do. Yet.
I have a sneaking suspicion that it has to do with letting things go. Breaking down the wall. Laying myself bare. Letting people in. But like i said….i dont know exactly. yet.
Aside from the funk, things are going well. Last week was the first week of sherwood, definitely insane. So good, the kids were WAY into the robin hood skit. I also had to deal with a lot of stuff in the beginning of the week….pretty sure that the hardest day of the summer is over though. But really, I love sherwood. Like, you have no idea. Family camp this week has been wonderful as well. My favorite has definitely been playing games at night with the parents. Just super chill, super fun, and they give us tons of junk food. Why not?
I could go on and tell stories and what not…but i’m not really in the mood to write a book at the moment, and most of this post is more of an outlet for me than an update….but whatev. More to come for sure, and you should definitely ask me for stories, because i’ve got them.
