This has been a wild ride.
And we haven’t even had campers yet.
Leadership is such a strange thing. That having a title gives you authority over people. It’s both something that a person steps into, and something a person is given. They have to take charge, make the decisions that need making, do the things that need doing, teach the things that need teaching, but they also need a group of people who give them the authority to do that. People who will follow where they lead, who will learn what they teach. It is strange. It is strenuous. It is stressful and nerve wracking and sometimes i feel like I have no idea what I am doing. BUT…i love it. It will be a hard intense summer, but it will be full of so many good things that I am sure there will be no way to count them.
My team kicks butt. Let me just say that.
This summer promises a lot of newness. New experiences, new relationships, newly gained knowledge and wisdom. It also promises many of the same things that summers have meant since I’ve worked here. This community, dear old friends with whom I am free to laugh and cry, and Jesus absolutely blowing my mind with the ways in which He works.
I won’t blog too often. I’ll tell you that right now. But i’ll try to give a little update every now and then. Right now i am doing well. Occasionally slightly overwhelmed, but holding my own, and am realizing and finally beginning to believe that I have some really valuable things to give to this community and to the campers. Of course, most of those valuable things come directly from Jesus, but the fact that He is using me….just wow. Or the fact that He has given me experiences that allow me to do this job well, and to bring something new and me to the table. I wondered before summer if I would try to be Janice once the job got going. I am not Janice, and I am not trying to be her. And regardless if she was a better coordinator than I am, the only way I can do things to the best of my ability is to be me. So here I am. I don’t know everything. Sometimes I really don’t know what to do. I can’t verbalize half the thoughts in my head, and I’m much harder to really get to know than I would like to be. But I’m doing what I can, and have faith that God is working through my weaknesses as well as my strenths. Which He has. And is. And will continue to do.
I really just want to bless the people around me. Really….that’s all I want right now.
It’s a good place to be in.
