I am so tired of worrying about money.
I am so uneasy about finances next year. Mostly because I don’t want to be completely broke when I graduate. I also want to go to China with orchestra in January…my parents really don’t have money to pay for that, so I will be finding money and paying for that on my own. If I really do go to europe when I graduate, i’ll have to pay for that plane ticket. My living situation next year is….oh just stressing me out. It was going to be great, there were going to be three of us getting a 2 bedroom apartment, which would make it plenty cheap enough, and it was going to be great. But one person backed out, and now there’s just two of us…which is fine, except it makes everything MUCH more expensive…so we’re getting a one bedroom apartment…and rent is still going to be a good deal more than I’ve been paying…it just stresses me out. It wouldn’t be that big of a deal except i’m not going to be working in the spring, because i’ll be student teaching. Maybe I’ll just work like mad in the fall. Maybe i’ll try to get random other jobs. I’ll work really hard to get some gigs lined up…and babysitting jobs…and then…well, then I can have some extra money to last me….that would make me feel better. We’ll see where i’m at after the china thing plays out. that’ll probably make or break the situation.
I know God is just trying to teach me to trust. To let go. To know that I will be taken care of.
I think I just need to remember that. That I can trust, and everything will be ok. So maybe I’ll be a little broke at some point. I’ll still be taken care of.
