I am actually, really, and truely ok now

I had an amazing experience last night.
I finally let go.
I think one of my issues is I want to be strong.  I want to be dependable and strong willed and able to take care of myself and get things done (and not just done but done well).  this is good in many cases, but it [...]

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Right now, this is me

I had a terrible day. There is no specific reason why it was terrible. Nothing drastic happened. Life is just trying to drown me again, and I feel like I’m fighting against it, and it’s hard. I’m angry because Andrew and I can’t interact like normal people anymore, and it makes me sad and frustrated, [...]

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Giving Thanks

This weekend has meant a lot to me.  I needed rest so badly I really don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t gotten it.  As it is, the next few weeks are going to be insane, and I’m not really looking forward to it too much.  My mom is visiting next weekend [...]

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Random

Recently I have remembered why I do this whole music thing.  God is good.  I love it when I get chills while playing music
I am leaving for Indiana tomorrow.  I am so glad.  I have been so overworked lately.  so tired.  So in need of actual rest.  (More than just sleep…although sleep is [...]

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Beauty

You know how people say that we should see the world anew everyday, and just be astounded by the beauty and complexity of creation every time we see it?  I mean, nobody is actually like that.  Can you imagine?  Every time you look outside, “WOW!  LOOK AT THIS!”  I feel like that’s excessive.  But sometimes [...]

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Life. (apparently doesn’t like me much right now)

So I’ve been pretty good lately.  I finally reached something resembling emotional normalcy.  Which was glorious.  But then what happens?  I do something STUPID and my life turns to crap again.  That’s not true.  Today was just not really fun.  At all.  I am so sick of having to deal with things!  Ugh!  I just [...]

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